Hello all who follow me or not on this blog. Apologies for the lack of activity. The recent days have been busy.
The things I'm working on are a little on the hush hush, so I've been quiet for the time being. If you've been following my twitter, you'll more or less be updated on my general days with the victories and frustrations.
Looking at my personal goals that I said I would achieve, from graduation to now, I can say this: I scraped a lot of projects, had a lot of false starts, and gave up on unplanned ideas. I will try not to get into another stupid compliment-fishing rant about how much I hate myself and my falsely attributed laziness, so I'll leave this negativity with a better positive note.
I managed to find a day job in my general field with in a month of graduating college, I can't say that for many of my peers still out there searching, so I can only give thanks. I managed to attend a few events that test my skills and allowed m more opportunities to network naturally, to which I am glad. I'm slowly and steadily getting into freelancing, getting the first few gigs that pay me seriously, so I'm fortunate for that. I've drawn things that I didn't think to draw last year, and that's a good thing.
On general life victories and accomplishments, I've managed to make more decisions to make myself more independent, it isn't that much I feel, but I'm taking baby steps. I went out places, mostly to leave my general area of comfort. I'll be better than myself next year for sure.
As I've mentioned before, I've scrapped many personal projects I hoped to complete or at least work on. If any of you following me were disappointed about projects I said I would commence but didn't deliver, I apologize profusely. I can't force improvement I suppose, but I don't want to be that guy who can't improve because he can't have the sense to be creative. I am creative, everyone tells me I'm creative, and I want to show more people that I am creative, because to my creativity is my purpose of life. When I don't feel creative, I feel that all the worst is coming down on me.
So I work to prove it to you and to prove to myself that I have something to contribute to, for the lack of better words, life. I don't want to give up, I already spent my life telling myself that this is the path I wanted to pursue. At the moment, I'm doing my best to not confirm the doubts that creep up in my head.
My next year goal is simple. Make more improvements. Honestly, I want to make more quality outputs, but I also wan't to reduce the perfection I want to put to it, contradictory I know but it's pretty much the thing nailing me to the ground, stopping me from being a real pro. I never actually sent out my portfolios to any notable places to see if any of them want me. So I must do that this year.
I also plan to go to more conventions to show off my work. I'm trying to save up a bit of cash to go to C2E2 or Wizard World Chicago. Another thing I hope to accomplish is to have more color illustrations completed. I'd like to shoot for at least three! Why three? I at least have 3 months to dedicate on making the piece in the year.
I also want to try out some software alternatives, so I'm doing a serious study on other competitive programs to learn. my list includes: Toon Boom Animate, Storyboard Pro, Anime Studio, Manga Studio, Paint Tool Sai, Painter, DigiCel Flipbook, Blender, and Scupltris. I may or may not also more seriously look into Zbrush and Mudbox a little harder because they're in my laptop taking up space.
Another thing that I've failed to achieve that I wanted to begin was to get some stories made: comics, storyboards, or at-least something written. There are scripts I need to work on and started Flash crap, but in general, I'm am a royal fuck up at making these promises. So I at least want to get that more out there.
As a general artist, I want to work harder in making non-living things, landscapes, backgrounds, and vehicles. I also plan to go harder on working with different media. Inks, pastels, and paints. I wanted to oil paint last year but I had cold feet, so I want to try oils out this time.
I will move forward, and I won't forgive myself if I don't. To future me, good luck.
